I had a pair of pants on yesterday. I bought them in July with high hopes. I mean, really, who believes I can seriously wear
Category: Body Image
I Scream and I Walk
I’m done with ED. Truly. I’m not going back to exercising 3 hours a day and stupid eating rules. Going back has never been an
What I See Now
“She has an eating disorder.” “How can you tell?” “I just can. Look at her eyes – they’re dead. See how she exercises like she’s
This Passionate Teeter Totter-er
In grade school my friends and I went through a teeter totter phase. Our main goal in teeter tottering: to see how high we could
Question Mark or Period?
The beginning and the end. From the start to the finish. The gun goes off and the tape breaks. The light flips on and the
On a Scale of 1 to 10
ED makes me feel special. I get to be different from everyone with ED. I’m not vanilla pudding in a crowd when ED’s with me.
My Hair Ball
Therapist. There is a stigmatism associated with the word. A sign of weakness? A source of embarrassment? The reason for jokes? My view of the
ED and his Nasty Alliance
ED has an ally. And he and his ally work against me. They tag team me. Just when I think I’ve pushed ED away and
I Choose Life
I have a question that’s been bothering me the last little while. Why am I recovering when so many others can’t get out of ED’s